June 2008
5 posts
I NEED TO WRITE
“but im not looking for decent, I like em sleezy and easy.”
– Co-Worker
Nothing really pains more than this little thing that I hold in my hand. Its a bit of light blue, green and yellow. Some letters that entange that would make little sense to anyone but a few. Ive kept it hidden, lost but it always finds its way back to me in the lonely hours. What it feels like to be worried about, or care, or to be loved. What it feels like when what you do matters. When you had...
So I tried it agian, for like the 4th time in my life. Its always after you try it you think to yourself “Why did I do this? Its awful”, So that was it, that was the last time and im never doing it again. Its not as great as people say, on the contrary it makes you feel dumb, little, and all that other bad stuff. People are confusing discomfort with something great to use as an excuse...
May 2008
3 posts
I have writers block, Well not really. I have tons to write, a little too much. Thats overwhelming. So im just lazy.
“honesty is not synonymous with truth”
Ahhhh
I wanted to write a lot, I thought it all out …. but…. I didnt. =] And I feel good about it, I dont think being a dick and hurting other peoples feelings will really make my situation any better. Well maybe id feel better, its a good idea to just lash out or tell people whats on your mind but I feel more human not doing it. Its probably going to just swim inside me, bother me later on...
April 2008
7 posts
“People do it everyday, they talk to themselves… they see themselves as...”
Now ive lost control…….., Of my mind , of my soul. and then she came along, gonna sing a song. dont leave me lonely, completely lonely. I got this girl in my head, why would I want someone less of extraordinary. id like to earn your respect, but I cant handle suspense. When you start to absorb and start to love me, we can stop this world and do it slowly. If you got the time, turn the...
Even though were on bad terms now, I was listening to one of your favorite songs, way back then. (112 - Still in Love) It made me realize that song probably didnt really remind you of me at all, maybe it would now, but not back then. It was probably about that other guy. and then I listened to the other song. ( Ciara - And I ) and its kind of sad. It was sad then, Its still kinda sad now. Sorry. I...
I cleaned my room, Did the laundry, Exercised, and took a shower. Wooooo, Still no sleep and almost exhausted. Ill get a good night/day sleep tonight/today. and , then ill be ready. To start doing crap I said I was going to do.
Okay, After about 30 some odd hours of no sleep, and just constant thinking about crap, Ive come to the conclusion that I need to make some drastic changes. Drastic ofcourse translates into “bad”. and I have all intention of it being bad. Things need to be changed regardless. I have to start somewhere, well not start in the sense that its going to be some long journey where I better my...
Lol, I feel like the mafia.
The City 0n Film: ill get you your money bro
The City 0n Film: sorry
The City 0n Film: i really fucked up bad
The wind was unpredictable and chilling. It wasnt an ideal moment to be outside yet for unexplainable reasons, I was. Looking onward to the majestic clock tower helped me realize that I had sufficient time before my next class would commence. I never really understood why there was such a giant clock tower at a school, but I appreciated it nevertheless. The mixture of smoke and cold air was...